Living in Chaos

As a Worship Leader I confess...

I sometimes loose focus of God make and it a show

I feel inadequate in the "Leading" aspect

I should know My word more than I do

I don't care how I dress because neither does my God

I hate almost all "Christian Music"

I believe that music itself glorifies God regardless of lyrics

I have major issues with the "traditional Church"

I strive to bring in outside culture to the church

I hate music stands!

I strive for excellence because my God deserves nothing less

I've been known to be prideful after a few accolades

I have to eat a lot of humble pie

I constantly wonder what corporate worship would look like without the ability to produce melody

I've seen the truest worship happen during "secular songs"

I struggle worshiping in a congregation because the musician in me is constantly critiquing every aspect

I'll do anything except defy The Word to orchestrate honest, broken, exhilarating, justice provoking, worship

I have a confession to make...

I am 99.9% sure I idolize my computer. A week ago today, I sent it off for a minor repair (that was thankfully covered by AppleCare), but I now realize I am completely dependent on my MacBook. I never realized how much so until the last week. Not only do I HAVE to have it for internet and such, but half of my life is stored on there. It has my entire music collection, my reminders, my contacts, my passwords, songs I've written, even most of the Tv shows and movies I watch. I can't believe how much faith I put in a stupid little device, and yet I have difficulty trusting God in some of the smallest areas of my life. How jacked up is that? Think about it...