Living in Chaos

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New Keyboard...

Yesterday I went and got my new keyboard so I can watch TV and movies on my computer from bed and not have to get up turn them off. I know, I'm lazy. It's great

Yesterday I gave into temptation...

 

After nearly 15 months of abstaining from all carbonated beverages, I caved. I was with Jay and he ordered a Cherry Coke and he said "Do You Want One Too?" It was over. I could no longer control myself. I gave in and tasted one of the greatest tastes known to man and I have no regrets, but now I have got to get some of that Blue Mountain Dew!

Support this...

Ok, so I know a lot of people have seen this jumble of words before. Usually it's on the upper right corner of an emo kid. I've known about this organization for quite some time. Almost everybody I know in South Carolina had at least one piece of TWLOHA merchandise, and all of them knew what they were representing. Now that I'm back in the sunshine state(wihich is where TWLOHA started) I realize most of the people who have heard of it, think it's a band. So I have decided to do all that I can to inform people about this group that truly represents the Church. I know haven't actually explained what TWLOHA is, and there is good reason for that, I'll let the founder Jamie Tworkowski explain...

Marijuana is legal???

Last night I watched a movie called "Super High Me" which is basically the plot of "Super Size Me," the movie where the dude eats nothing but Mickey D's for 30 days, but instead of eating Big Macs all day this guy get's high constantly with every form of Tetrahydrocannabinol possible. Including but not limited to Hash brownies, Ganja energy bars, Vaporizers, and just good old-fashioned joints. The thing that blew my mind was that since 1994 in the state of California anyone with a note from their doctor can go into a "dispensary" which is basically a pot pharmacy and get any form of marijuana they want. The catch is, this is legal under Proposition 215, but illegal under Federal law. In 3 years these dispensaries have gone from 40 or so to nearly 300. Marijuana is the biggest cash crop in the U.S. It yields much more income than wheat, sugar, cotton, or anyother crop we grow. Crazy huh? I'm writing all of this from a fairly neutral point of view because while I know that plenty of people abuse this law to just get a quick score, I also know many patients suffering from cancer, aids, and other various diseases get the pain relief, increased appetite, and just overall more human feeling they desperately seek because of this rule. Think about it...

As a Worship Leader I confess...

I sometimes loose focus of God make and it a show

I feel inadequate in the "Leading" aspect

I should know My word more than I do

I don't care how I dress because neither does my God

I hate almost all "Christian Music"

I believe that music itself glorifies God regardless of lyrics

I have major issues with the "traditional Church"

I strive to bring in outside culture to the church

I hate music stands!

I strive for excellence because my God deserves nothing less

I've been known to be prideful after a few accolades

I have to eat a lot of humble pie

I constantly wonder what corporate worship would look like without the ability to produce melody

I've seen the truest worship happen during "secular songs"

I struggle worshiping in a congregation because the musician in me is constantly critiquing every aspect

I'll do anything except defy The Word to orchestrate honest, broken, exhilarating, justice provoking, worship

It's been awhile...

It's been a little over 5 weeks since I last blogged. Here's what you missed...

1.I am now once again residing in The Sunshine State
2.My Jeep blew up on the way down here so I am transportationless
3.I live with my best friend Jason Mueller and his family
4.I'm struggling to figure out God's purpose for my life
5.Ive had 12 7-11 Slurpees in 7 days

Nerd Alert...

I was wandering around Itunes as usual when I happened upon this...

The artwork is sick and because it's done such in such a minimal way it really makes you focus on the story. Truly inspiring. Less IS More...

Epic Fail...

As you know, last Friday I decided that for one week I would listen to nothing but worship music. I'm here to tell you I FAILED! Within 36 hours I slipped up by listening to some country music with a friend, and then not 10 minutes later I was boppin' my head and biting my lower lip to some Gym Class Heroes. I've decided to postpone this challenge until I have a solid week where I am not forced to ride in a car with friends that will not oblige my current situation. That being said, the next time a attempt this daring feat, I will not be defeated!

I'm counting on you...

 

Ok, so recently my musical tastes have changed. Due to the fact that I have recently been encouraged to branch out into other forms of music, for the simple fact that different styles reach different people. As a worship leader, I want to be able to connect with as many different people as possible, to get them dialed in with Christ. However this "branching out" has taken a bit of toll on me since much of the popular music these days is all "bitches and hoes" and what not. SO, i have decided to purge my mind. For one week(starting today) I am going to listen to nothing but straight worship music. I am not a prude who hates good music, I just simply want to listen to nothing but completely God-focused music for the next week. That being said, I am issuing you a challenge...KEEP ME IN CHECK! If you see me with my ipod, ask me what I'm listening to. If you pass me on the highway and see me bobbing my head like a moron because I think no one can see inside my car. Text me and be like "yo u listn 2 jesus muzic or devil jamz?" I need You!

I'll post results next Friday...

It's beginning to look alot like...

...Thanksgiving eve? What the eff? I am so ready for T-day to be over and for Xmas to start. I have a one rule for this end-of-November-beginning-of-December-season that is very sacred, and never to be broken.

--No Xmas traditions until "Black Friday."--
(this includes but is not limited to: hot chocolate, Xmas movies, Xmas lights or any other form of Xmas decorations, and wishing others "Happy Holidays" and/or "Merry Xmas.")

However, this year, I caved. It's November 26th, Thanksgiving eve, and I just got done watching a Xmas movie. I just couldn't wait this year! So even though it's against everything I believe, I concede defeat. "Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good T-day eve!"

So True...

This song has really been keeping me in check lately...

I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, I have known pain
But there's one thing, that I'll cling to
You are faithful, Jesus You're true

When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

In the lone hour of my sorrow
Through the darkest night of my soul
You surround me and sustain me
My defender, forevermore

I will praise You, I will praise You
When the tears fall, still I will sing to You
I will praise You, Jesus praise You
Through the suffering still I will sing